Being healthy : My experiences and problems

Easy to say, I know that, but after starting it becomes increasingly easy, it's just a matter of habit. I say this from experience. I'm an only child and, as such, my parents always had the tendency to pamper me a lot when I was little, but not with objects or material things because I wasn't a child who was always asking a lot, but what I asked for was food, especially sweets, yes, I have a sweet tooth (Guiltyyyyy). So until I was like 13/14 years old, my body 'swam' in sugar, and was very lucky not to get diabetes since I have many cases of diabetes in the family and, of course, I was chubbier than the other teens that were the same age as me.
But at that age (13/14) I started to care more about my appearance and started looking at the other girls and I started noticing they were thinner and absolutely gorgeous and that made me so jealous and when I looked in the mirror I hated everything I saw: my belly was huge, my arms were too fat and flabby, my legs that I've hated since then and still don't like.

 At that time began a major problem: If I could skip meals , I would. I wouldn't eat lunch: I used to tell my parents I was going to have lunch at school and at school used to say I was going home to have lunch, I wouldn't even have breakfast or some sort of snack , and when somebody asked me why I wasn't eating I used to say "I ate when I left home, I'm not hungry" . At Weekends I only used to have two meals : lunch and dinner, and I barely ate anything . Anyways , that lasted about a year and during that year I was just frustrated , sad, always tired and If I wasn't in school trying to pretend that everything was alright, I was at home in my room closed and I almost never went out with friends ( still don't got out much ) . During that time where I completely messed up my whole body I didn't lost a lot of weight, I only lost about 3 to 4 kg, and because I was 'big' I looked at the mirror and didn't saw any difference. After seeing that nothing had changed and it just became even more depressed and started eating normally (or abnormally) I started to eat all meals and between meals I would drown in junk food and obviously I gained some weight. At this point I was at 16 years old and had just started high school.

New school, new friends, new bad habits. I found myself studying in the city (Porto) and that meant easier access to junk food and I used to eat it every single day of the week, every month. At the end of this school year had gained even more weight. I don't think it was too visible for the other people but I could feel it in my body, I could see my clothes, I could even see it when I was at PE and I could run as much as I could at the start of the school year. I started my junior year with 69 Kg and ended it with 75kg.

It was precisely when I saw this weight on the scale that I realized I had to start eating differently, but I soon realized that after 16 years of poor diet, would't be able to change from one moment to another and start to have a completely healthy lifestyle. Lets be honest, at 16 years old the things we care the less is " oh I'm gointg to be healthy" but I looked at myself in the mirror and said "I Have to change, not because of society that 'tells' us we have to be skinny or even because of the looks of despise some people gave me in the street just because I didn't looked as thin as them, but for me and for my health! I want to be healthier and wone day when I'm older I want to thank myself for taking this decision. " and since that day I started doing it .

The day I started School (Junior Year) I started trying to change habits. The 1st thing that changed was starting to reduce, untill I eliminate completely eating fast food and soft drinks. After two months, despite not having lost any weight, I noticed my stomach did not feel so bloated. That made me just get really motivated. I had been trying to change habits until March 2011. At that time I had lost 2 pounds and was at 73kg, but it was also at that time that I started preparing for national exams and I don't know how to cope with stress, I didn't stared eating like crazy again but I gained back the 2kg, and at the end of the exams I had gone back to 75kg and I didn't tell anyone but I started to feel really bad and was frequently calling myself "stupid fatty" because honestly thought I couldn't lose weight.

After the exams kept the 75kg for a year. At the end of the senior year after the exams I decided I really needed to change my habits and so I did it , from July of 2013 I started to feed me more healthily, I eliminated fast- food and fried and stared eating more grilled food, more vegetables, and started drinking lots of water and green tea (in the future I will make a post dedicated only to the benefits that green tea brought to my health)

Now we are in November 2013 , I weight 72kg, would have lost more weight if my metabolism helped but oh well ! (I wrote this and published it in  Portuguese in November, now it's January and I still weight the same)

The message I want you to keep in mind with this (long) post is that it's not worth worrying too much about your weight especially when you are very young because it will bring you so much emotional and physical problems, and if you really want to actually lose weight because don't feel comfortable with the weight you have or you wanna look better or you just wanna be more healthy, simply talk to someone, maybe a doctor, or your parents, grandparents, uncles ... Whoever, just make sure you really trust that person/person.



Take care, kisses xx